While perfectionism is disconnecting, true perfection requires unity.
Commandments are ways for us to learn doctrines by living them. Keep yourself in a growth mindset by looking for new things to learn and stop beating yourself up about things you don't understand yet.
Use commandments to build connections and they will become easy.
Both Judas and Peter wanted Jesus to establish a political kingdom for Israel and overthrow the Romans, but only one followed God's plan.